Getting Distrac….Oh shiny thing…

I have a new addiction, to add to the spending one, the eating one, and the collecting addictions one… I now feel I am quite addicted to swapping and watching videos of people making art. Ok that is two. WATCHING videos of OTHER people making art (crafters porn, really… it is!) only means that I am actually DOING less art.

Perhaps I like that fact? I have mountains of things that I should be doing so perhaps this new obsession is just another way for me to be able to procrastinate. I actually cleaned up my kitchen sink the other day – who knew it was stainless steel??? I got it all shiny again! :p Now if that isn’t a cry of avoidance I don’t know what is but hey – I have a shiny sink again and I half cleaned the floor. I went round the stuff on the floor – it’s not like that is gathering dust.
If there is such a thing I think I have chronic messy disorder. I feel more at ease in a messy home… in a messy studio; until that is I am expecting company. When that happens I see every single bit of fluff, every hair and start counting the flies – and I know there is an unhealthy amount of them in the house. I start to see all the layers of dust – like a scene in a movie when they find an abandoned mansion (which will ultimately end in their doom – the sure sign of this is the amount of dust they see as they run their fingers over the mantlepiece) – we all scream, “GET OUT!!! RUN AWAY!!” and that’s probably the reaction I have when people come round here.
I do try to have a bit of a tidy – I start to sneeze, become all wheezy and get out of breath – and that’s just from digging out the hoover from the clutter under the stairs.. only to find the belt broke in 1983…
So yes I can get a little distracted and often this is just an avoidance issue… It’s hard really because as soon as I miss a deadline my brain just gives up. So annoyed and ashamed that YET AGAIN everything got delayed and left til the last-minute and we missed the deadline that its logical way of dealing with this is to just not bother at all. It’s absurd of course. Surely one day late is better than not at all??? I know that, we know that – but my brain isn’t really on board with that theory and so will busy me with other things like bleaching and scrubbing the tiles – like THAT is ever an urgent job (unless you are my Mum of course).
The other problem with swapping is that I am spending more time making art for total strangers, paying to have them sent away and I’m not doing the work I should be doing – again, a handy avoidance tactic.
Watching other people make art only makes me want to go out and buy all the stuff for that craft and do that – because I get bored VERY easily so always want to try something new. This also then feeds my addiction to spending and hoarding and being surrounded with STUFF even more. My studio is so full with stuff it will probably last me for the rest of my life because I don’t actually make anything – oh no – too busy on the computer watching other people creating and keeping up with everyone’s EVERY THOUGHT PROCESS on facebook….
So – in conclusion to these revelations what will I do differently? Perhaps go on the computer less – which could lead to more housework instead, which to be fair isn’t  really a bad thing… (must get that hoover belt). Will I stop going on Facebook? Does it really matter if I don’t read the comments people make every few minutes? Will the world end if I don’t get on there and announce that I have found another grey hair? Will people really miss the photographs of the art that I do or have nervous breakdowns because I didn’t share some random petition to save the earwig from extinction..? NO. I don’t really want to get old and listing all those things I said I would do but never really had the time.. I DO have the time – I just seem to waste it all on Facebook!
The trick will be that I don’t get distracted and decorate a room instead – (oh yes I have done this one… whole room makeover in 38 hours).
So with that I am going to get off of this contraption, take myself to McDonalds and I’m going to write some jokes for my gig – which is TONIGHT! – right after I just check facebook and tell everyone that this blog post is here…. 😀

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